Getting closer

The time I have left before graduation keeps getting less and less. Which, I guess is a good thing. We had our pictures taken last week. The pictures are for our graduation announcements that we will send out for invitations. I thought they turned out pretty good. I even thought about ordering a few extras so I could give one to my mom and dad - until I looked at the prices. I cant even get one single picture for less than 30 dollars, regardless of the size. So........ I may be reconsidering that decision. Students are poor. They need to change their prices! Oh, BUT the thing that I really did like about the pictures was that they took one single picture of each student with just a plain white background. That one is so we can use it when we apply for our state license since you have to add a picture. And the licensing boards can be pretty picky about the picture (and well the whole process for that matter). Anyway,there will be a big framed picture of everyone that will be hung on a wall in our classroom. In a way thats not a big deal, but then again, I do feel kind of honored because we are the very first graduating RT class this school has had. So every class that comes in from here on out will see our pictures hanging on the wall (like we are starting the tradition sort of).

I have had 3 weeks off (excluding the state rt convention last week). My clinicals start again next week. These clinicals will be different from the past two years, though, because it will be in the pediatric and neonatal units. Granted I have had a few clinicals in a pediatric unit in the past, but let me enhance the word "FEW". I have A LOT to learn. And that fact in itself scares the living hell out of me. Why? Because I graduate in ONE month. WHAT IF I'M NOT READY TO GRADUATE. WHAT IF I DON'T WANT TO WORK AN RT SHIFT ON MY OWN BECAUSE THEN I WONT HAVE ANYONES DECISIONS TO RELY ON BUT MY OWN. OH GOD!


Oh god how am I going to pass my test? Have I studied enough? Do I know enough?


This is getting stressful................